Okay, so I am not sold on the title of this blog yet. I didn't want to sit around trying to come up with something pithy, and have that lack of pithyness hold me back from actually trying to write the damn thing, so I rushed it and ended up with that. Perhaps, like turning forty, it will grow on me.
I made a New Year's Resolution. Usually my only one is to not make any because I don't like setting myself up for failure at a time of the year that is supposed to be all festive and fun and full of promise. I figure I should just do my best at all times and blame myself if I fail. I did, as I mentioned earlier, turn forty this year (okay, okay last year, I lie) and perhaps that newfound comfort with aging has wizened me to the value of promising yourself something. I resolved to make better use of my resources, such as they are and what there is of them.
I have an internet connection. I used to be good at this writing thing, so here I am...hopefully for your sake since you are reading this I get better at it as I go on. I hope to make use of this blog to ask questions of myself and the world in general. To challenge myself to think and to share these thoughts (this is where you think "Lord, help me!") The goal I have for myself is to learn to think things through better, to become better able to express myself and to have more fun and be more social. Oh yes, there is another resolution tucked into that sentence...be more myself than I am now.
Back to the title...
I come from a family that is fractured. Mental illness has claimed a good percentage of my immediate family and it isn't the kind of crazy they make comedies about. I am blessed, I am not afflicted. I live in fear that my blood legacy will be to pass this damnable burden on my children. I don't like to talk about it, any of it, yet it is part of me and who I am. I believe that nobody should try to generally define what "Normal" is. Normal is something everyone must define for themselves.
Hey, it didn't take long, turns out I like this unintentionally Yoda like title after all!
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